Seek within yourself
This Monday, I had a moment of epiphany. I was staring at my resin figures on top of my closet, and realized something. Every achievement and sense of accomplishment is temporary.
A bit of backstory… I’m a massive fan of the Payday franchise, except for the latest release, Payday 3, but I would rather not get into that in this post. I have over 300 hours on Payday 2 and I don’t regret a single hour of it. Since it is just a piece of software that heavily relies on Steam, I wanted something physical to remember the game by and all the joyous moments I had. So I bought the Dozer bobble head figure on eBay. This was almost 2 years ago and recently, I stumbled upon another listing of the same figure. Naturally, I bought it again since it is no longer being officially sold by Overkill and I will most likely buy another one if I find it. Why, you might ask? It is in my nature. I like hoarding items I really like and/or are limited in number.
When it finally arrived I was so excited and happy, and I still am, but not as much. A few weeks gone by, and I now take it for granted. Which led me to the realization that I should not be seeking happiness in the pursuit of material things. I should be happy from my accomplishments, my values, my good deeds, from the things that actually matter.