Time feels unreal lately (week 2)
I’m not sure how to describe it, but today feels like it should be 28th already but isn’t. My perception of time is very off for the past 7 days.
I feel like I’m living multiple lives at once. For example; this morning I woke up and the first thing I thought to myself was something along the lines of “Ah, this again” or “Oh yeah, I have to do this again”. This wasn’t in the spirit of “Ugh I hate waking up” or “I have to do this again? (life)” absolutely not. This was more like “Oh, I’m playing this reality again/now”. I also experienced a lot of Déjà vu’s and predictions about future events related to me. It was like next level overthinking without the negative effects of overthinking. I feel that these experiences gave me a lot of mental clarity about certain things.
I feel more alive
Since the beggining of 2024 I feel more alive and conscious. Basically like the main character that I am. I feel more responsible for my life and happy to be alive. Not to say that I was previously depressed or anything but this is very different.
Blender
I plan on dedicating at least 30 minutes per day to learning Blender. I modeled a few things in Blender before, I remember it being very fun and a creative outlet, but for some reason I gave up on it. Probably because of some stupid video game or other source of cheap dopamine.